So if someone was going to hit a rewind button and release the button way back when I started college or med school in effect erasing my medical knowledge and memory of how hard the path is, but I had to decide right now in the present if I wanted to program my life to become an anesthesiologist again, I would say HELL YES! Why? As my friend, Hawaiian Bruin, points out...Anesthesia is F'n awesome! I am very happy with what I do and my way of life. If had to tell my 18 year old self is it worth it, I would tell him yes.
Some interesting anecdotes...
Having said the above, I would never want to do med school and residency again. Once was plenty. It was not really an enjoyable time. One word to describe it. GRIND. The trek was a mother f****in' GRIND. Very early on in the trek, you just want to finish. You just want out.
But...since it was worth it, and I am very happy now, I would tell my 18 year old self to go for it.
A very interesting question:
How many fresh attendings would do it all over again starting now at their current age (30-35 year olds)?
Why do I bring this up? My brother and I are physicians, and a good friend of mine, who was our roommate in college, recently decided on a career change. He is a lawyer, but 3 years ago he told me he wanted to change from law into medicine. He just was not liking law anymore and wanted something different. He is my age, married with two kids. He had already made up his mind and was set to take some prereq courses in the spring in preparation for completing prereqs and taking the MCAT. At the time I was a CA3. I explained that I would help and guide in any way I could. I explained that I wanted him to be aware that after 8-10 years of work, I was just now getting into a place where I felt that "happiness" so if he wanted that "warm and fuzzy" feeling of helping the world, he probably was not going to see that for a while, and in the interim, it was going to be a mother f***ing GRIND. He understood and wanted to go on with it. My friend is now ready to start his first day of med school this month. At age 34 he is going to get the "This is what we expect from you out of our gross anatomy course". That speech was 11 years ago for me.
It got me to ask my brother, knowing what we know, what would it take for us to begin the ENTIRE journey right now at our current age. I ask you guys to. The main list that my brother came up with...
Knowing what I know, to start the entire process again the following would have to apply:
1. The hypothetical genie would have to make it that I was somehow single and never met my wife and started a family. THERE IS NO WAY I COULD DO IT AGAIN AT MY AGE WITH A WIFE AND TWO KIDS.
2. The payout would have to be more. Obviously the financial gain would have to be more in order to start at my age. My brother and I felt double salary was not even close. 3x salary was maybe, but we felt 4x salary was a much better thought.
3. I would have to keep my medical knowledge. If the deal is that I have to start at my age with a blank canvas, the answer is emphatically NO since I know how hard it was.
4. I would prefer that my tuition be paid for. If condition 2 were met, I may be OK with paying tuition depending on how much.
There may have been more stipulations, but I can't think of them right now.
Yes there were people in their 30's in my med school class, and my friend is going to be in his 30's in his M1 class.
Me personally, though, with what I know of how hard it was and how taxing emotionally, financially, mentally, physically, there is no way I could start from scratch in my early to mid 30's. Your thoughts?