Just different patch of grass you’re seeing. Outpatient can take a lot out of you. If you’re like me hate doing paperwork, you’d hate outpatient. If you don’t like to listen to peoples life stories, even chill hours without production pressure, it can be depressing. I did my IM at a very resource rich community, but getting any speciality to see my clinic patients required a lot of calling, sometimes begging. You think talking to surgeons in the OR is bad, try to talk to some of their ancillary staff, who are basically there just to say no.
I enjoyed my icu months, at the end I did about a year, much more than my OP months.
Also cardiology fellowship is not easy to come by, plenty of people did a chief admin year just to get a spot. A lot of ass kissing, a lot of persistence or you’re just exceptionally good.
I suppose that’s why I am doing what I am doing now. I can shut them up when I don’t like them, I don’t really have to coordinate care, occasionally I can show up in the icu. To each their own.