I woke up this morning with a sort of revelation that I thought I'd share, and I hope it helps one person like it's helped me.
Not getting the A yesterday doesn't mean I won't eventually get the A, but it did make me realize that I've purposely stranded myself in a joyless purgatory. As if my life and happiness are entirely dependent on matriculating to medical school ASAP. I've been in a weird place since submitting my AMCAS application a year ago today, and I think I'm finally choosing joy and ending my compulsive refresh on SDN forums, my email, and my portal(s).
Whatever the outcome of this cycle is for you all, I hope you're able to find joy in the future of serving our communities as physicians, whether that is in 5, 6, 7+ years, because there is no 'right path' to medicine.
Good luck to everybody accepted, those waiting for their decision, and those moving on.