-All of my professors that I have discussed the options with think it would be a good fit for me. Yes I would love to run my own lab, and I already have children and am married so I don't have to go through the "search for a mate" but I do know it will take a lot of time from my family life. I think it is worth it though. I want to do clinical research, but I also like basic science as well.
I would like to see patients of course, but I could live with 50/50, plus I am interested in psychiatry so that is definitely more of a flexible schedule type deal. (Also neuro too: mental disorders like schiz, parkinson, sleep disorders, alzheimer's etc VERY interested) I want to do research in behavioral neuroscience, and I also want to do neuro/behavioral pharmacology (through a PhD not PharmD of course!)
Basically my dream is to not only discover the science and mechanisms behind it all, but then apply it by treating patients etc etc. My ideal life would be lab and practice,...clinical trials etc I want to change public mental health, and change the attitudes towards psychiatry as well. Too many of our treatments have no definitive answers behind them. Working from the biological basis of behavior, and then be able to treat patients would be fulfilling to me.
-I have no fear regarding who will publish before me or what have you, that's life, there is always going to be competition. I am not going to steer away from something I want because I fear that someone may be thinking what I am thinking. What if no one is (very unlikely) but anyways I would not dare inhibit/deprive myself from knowledge.
-Length of time, 8 years of school, 4 years of residency, I am not afraid of that. As I said I have already accomplished what I wanted as far as family life, 12 years from now my son will be going into high school (sounds like perfect timing to me
but anyways some of the people I look up to most have been lifetime learners. I don't think being a student for a long time is necessarily a deal breaker, it's hard yes, but it is achievable, I want achievement.
There are a couple other reasons too, but the response is long enough as it is. Basically I want to go for it, if I don't make it so be it, but I would regret for the rest of my life if I didn't try.