LADoc00 said:
Wierd you are so obsessed with me, I think you are gay...I *might* let you buy me drinks if you are cute. If you ask real nice that is.
Hello Everyone, As a wife, full time worker and mother of two I felt compelled to respond to some of the craziness going on here. (Also, I've been a divorce lawyer so I have some broader perspective on these things.)
First, marriage is hard. It is hard to put someone else's feelings ahead of your own. It is hard to be 100% supportive of your spouse when you have your own needs and desires.
Second, parenting is hard. All of the above is particularly hard if you have children. Suddenly, your primary decision isn't where to have dinner or what movie to catch or whether to study, but how to be lovingly responsible for human beings who are completely dependent upon you. Frankly, at that point, if you are a mature parent, it's not all about you, in fact it's rarely about you. This, people, is about having vomit in your hair as I did this morning at 2:00 a.m. This is about nursing your baby and crying because you have to go to work in three hours and you haven't had more than four hours of sleep in a row for a year and a half. This is about changing crap filled diapers and living your life as a human napkin because you're smeared stem to stern with crusty baby cereal.
Third, dealing with all of this well, requires a shift in mentality from the idea that you're a fully autonomous human being to the idea that you, your spouse and the kids are dependent on each other. Every decision needs to be a balance between the needs of the family and your own need for self fulfillment or mental health with more weight given to the needs of the family than anything else.
Fourth, lots of marriages fail because one or both partners never makes this shift. After watching tons of people get divorced I think this is the main problem. Sure, lots of people are just dinguses, but usually the main problem is that one or both partners can't give up their ego needs to have eyecandy, sexual options, a high status job, emotional control or whatever it is that keeps them from being a fully engaged partner in nurturing the relationship, caring for the kids, cleaning the house and otherwise showing up.
Fifth, the main reason I think people have the above mentioned problem is because they have unreasonable and ridiculous notions about what marriage is about. Biggest misconception? That you can plan your life and your marriage like a college semester. People plan to have a beautiful wedding, a blissful marriage, perfect children, a fantastic job and a wonderful retirement. This is completely unrealistic because life has a way of slapping you in the face. So fine, you marry the guy with the perfect job, what if he's in a car accident and completely disabled? So you're the perfect age to have children, great, what if it turns out you can't have them? So you're on track to finish med school in the next two years and boom, the little E.P.T. test turns up two pink lines? What if your beautiful career is derailed by the death or illness of your child? So you've saved a hefty little bit of cash, what if the stock market goes bad? What if one of you has to give up their job to care for a child with a disability? What if your parents get ill? What if your spouse nearly dies in childbirth? These things can and do happen to people and some of them are going to happen to you.
Sixth, considering all the above, when deciding who to choose as a partner, cash, profession and status should be the least of your worries. choose the person who shows up. Choose the person who likes you on your fattest days. Choose the person who stays calm and collected in life's storms. Choose the person who pays attention to the things you care about. Choose the person who respects your family. Choose the person who loves to see you talk about your passions more than your possessions. Choose the person who doesn't care about how much money you make or that you are or are not a doctor or a dentist or lawyer. Choose the person who can take turns following and supporting. Choose the person you think you could adore even when they're covered in baby ****.
As for you, LA DOC00, I say this with all the love my little Buddhist/Christian heart can muster. I don't think you're the kind of person who shows up. I'm not saying you won't become that person, or that life won't help you find some generosity of spirit or ability to share your life in the way that marriage and love require. I'm just saying you aren't there now and that you're 100% right to stay away from marriage and all its accompanying craziness. Good for you!
As for the rest of you, I wish you tons of happiness and the love you can only know staring blearily at your snoring spouse across the sleeping bodies of your children.