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TL;DR—end of M2 (core clinical year) at a T20 without much productivity outside of the classroom. Interested in Neuro or IM or FM.
I’m most interested in Neuro, IM, FM, or MAYBE anesthesia but I’ve only spent 4 days on that so idk. Anyway, outside of school, I generally just go home and chill. I don’t mean to make this too personal, but at the end of M1 I came out to my mom as gay and it caused a huge stir. She threatened suicide, told me I am a disgrace, and I had to move out pretty quickly (lived with parents to save money). That was right before starting core clerkships (1 year preclinical program, so M1 is didactics, 2 is clinicals, 3/4 are Step 1 and 2, sub-Is, aways, etc). I had a hard time adjusting to clerkships, and I let clubs and research fall to the side.
Since all that, I’ve started investing more into what I want and what makes me happy. So I started working out, learned to cook, got a boyfriend, bought movie theater memberships for local theaters, and now just do what makes me happy. However, it seems everyone around me is super involved in research or clubs. I’m too lazy I think. I know none of the fields require heavy research or leadership, but I guess I don’t have much to show for commitment. I don’t want to end up in the middle of nowhere for 3-4 years, especially because I don’t want to drag my boyfriend to the boonies lol.
For more context, I have 2 first author papers from undergrad and my gap year, and one middle author manuscript that’s been in the works since last year. Otherwise, nothing.
I’m most interested in Neuro, IM, FM, or MAYBE anesthesia but I’ve only spent 4 days on that so idk. Anyway, outside of school, I generally just go home and chill. I don’t mean to make this too personal, but at the end of M1 I came out to my mom as gay and it caused a huge stir. She threatened suicide, told me I am a disgrace, and I had to move out pretty quickly (lived with parents to save money). That was right before starting core clerkships (1 year preclinical program, so M1 is didactics, 2 is clinicals, 3/4 are Step 1 and 2, sub-Is, aways, etc). I had a hard time adjusting to clerkships, and I let clubs and research fall to the side.
Since all that, I’ve started investing more into what I want and what makes me happy. So I started working out, learned to cook, got a boyfriend, bought movie theater memberships for local theaters, and now just do what makes me happy. However, it seems everyone around me is super involved in research or clubs. I’m too lazy I think. I know none of the fields require heavy research or leadership, but I guess I don’t have much to show for commitment. I don’t want to end up in the middle of nowhere for 3-4 years, especially because I don’t want to drag my boyfriend to the boonies lol.
For more context, I have 2 first author papers from undergrad and my gap year, and one middle author manuscript that’s been in the works since last year. Otherwise, nothing.