riseup2019
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As the title suggests, I am very much at a loss with what has been a rollercoaster of anxiety, depression and overall feeling like a failure. I failed my STEP 1 exam (184) and found out earlier this week that I failed by OB shelf exam. Really scared that this will continue to be a pattern and I've been hit with a tsunami of bad thoughts hence writing this.
I have always been a hard worker, and typically excelled prior to medical school. Received a full ride scholarship to a well-ranked university and managed to get into a few schools. Although my MCAT was not stellar, I was able to pass all of my school's exams (NBME's) -- never failed an exam, although I was average to below average for most. I didn't think I was at risk of failing STEP because I spent a lot of time studying throughout my first two years and started studying for it months in advance. I failed my school's NBME exam prior to taking the exam that gives us the green light to take the exam, but passed it on the retake. Studied and was doing ok on practice exams (not great, but at least passed the last one).
I also feel pretty much alone right now. I am studying for STEP again, and I don't know how to go on from here. I am taking a course, but right now I feel like they are pretty much dumbing the material down. Also, I already did UWorld twice during my last study period. So I have moved onto Kaplan and getting in the (50%-60%). So lost. Please help. Any words of encouragement would be really needed at this time.
I have always been a hard worker, and typically excelled prior to medical school. Received a full ride scholarship to a well-ranked university and managed to get into a few schools. Although my MCAT was not stellar, I was able to pass all of my school's exams (NBME's) -- never failed an exam, although I was average to below average for most. I didn't think I was at risk of failing STEP because I spent a lot of time studying throughout my first two years and started studying for it months in advance. I failed my school's NBME exam prior to taking the exam that gives us the green light to take the exam, but passed it on the retake. Studied and was doing ok on practice exams (not great, but at least passed the last one).
I also feel pretty much alone right now. I am studying for STEP again, and I don't know how to go on from here. I am taking a course, but right now I feel like they are pretty much dumbing the material down. Also, I already did UWorld twice during my last study period. So I have moved onto Kaplan and getting in the (50%-60%). So lost. Please help. Any words of encouragement would be really needed at this time.