Her rotation was my very first hospital exposure. I was very upfront with her on day one. I made clear that I had no hospital exp whatsoever, and I knew hospital was not something I wanna do postgrad. I was there simply because I had to. That being said, I was told by her to work on multiple new patients' cases every day, do med rec and work out careplans (4-5 pages each), and meet up with her every afternoon to debrief, despite my school advising preceptors to gradually increase workload week by week. I was routinely berated and quizzed on random stuff like lines of therapy for acute severe ulcerative colitis and pivotal trials etc...of course, I had no idea about that and could only give her generic answers like "I need to go and look that up", but then she would get visually upset and complain how I should be allowed to be there (We didn't cover UC thoroughly in lecture)...I was pissed without a doubt, but I was still trying to be respectful and do whatever I could to meet her crazy demands, including skipping lunches to finish writing careplans cuz she went absolutely nuts the day prior and questioned my productivity......As a student, what could I do other than sucking it up?
Then she gave me a failing grade at midpoint eval, and I was invited to the school coordinator office to discuss what I can do to improve. I told the coordinator what I experienced, and the coordinator later contacted my preceptor and made mutual agreement to do weekly progress reporting, to make sure I can eventually pass the rotation. For the following weeks, I was told by both my preceptor and coordinator that my performance was improving significantly (cuz I left home at 6AM, went home at 5PM, ate dinner & took a nap then started coding til 2-3AM, and repeat, from Monday to Friday) and was reasonably expected to pass. That was my assessment as well...... Well, until the very last day of the rotation, my preceptor told me she can't let me pass, due to some dubious and subjective assessment that was contradictory to the weekly progress report she gave the coordinator just a couple of days ago.
I was furious, and that was pretty much the breaking point for me. I was calm as hell on the spot, but immediately afterwards I emailed the coordinator and explained what I have done, the above and beyond efforts I made, and detailed why I deserved to pass. A week later, the coordinator emailed me back that my grade was finally adjusted to a pass...
It was not a fun experience at all. I was not alone. The other fellow student failed as well and had to delay graduation for a year and redo another rotation to make it up I heard. And I lost my last bit of respect for clinical pharmacists, especially the residency-trained ones who think they finally "made it" and have all the power to sabotage upcoming students' careers. This is not only not ok, but pure evil.