Hi, OP here.
What happened to this thread? Interesting discussion about parenting.. Luckily (or unluckily) I already know parenting accompanies plenty of unsolicited advice and minefield of guilt-trips.
Anyway, despite some thoughtful advice to delete the thread, I am keeping it for the sake of future moms to be who may google for this thread. Here’s an update of what happened.
I matched to a program and within a week matching, I notified them of my pregnancy. The chiefs got in touch with me to discuss my options. Below are some of the options given:
1. Take 2-6weeks off postpartum depending on my preference. 2 weeks will be my vacation, and remainder 0-4 weeks will be unpaid time off. Per ABIM(? or was it gme..) guideline, I can still graduate on time without making up, for up to 4 weeks if my PD determines that I am capable by the end of my final years of training. This time off will be followed by 2 weeks of elective, 2 weeks of clinic before I dive fully into inpatient duties.
2. If I want to take more than 6 weeks off, it can be done and it doesn’t affect the gme because they have more than enough interns to cover. However it will definitely delay my graduation, could mess with my chances of applying for fellowship, and potentially complicate licensing as the exam occurs at set time each year.
I chose option 1 and took 6 weeks off It was obviously not enough time to recovery. I also chose to electively induce at 39th week which was right after orientation week so that I don’t waste any elective rotations while pregnant. Unfortunately my baby was in posterior position, ended up doing c section after 24+ hours of labor. Made the recovery and nursing much tougher. I was ambitious and also took care of the step during the maternity leave. Probably my worst board score ever but hey, I passed.
Going back to work was extremely tough. I gave up on Pumping/breastfeeding despite our program being awesome about providing a pumping room because I could not handle getting mastitis again and wiping me out for days. (I didn’t know you can get flulike sx!) Working 80hours a week, taking turns with my partner for night duties for the baby.. One of the most physically and mentally challenging times of my life.
I have three loves of my life which are my spouse, my baby, and medicine. I love medicine very very much but when I first went back to work I hated it for the first time as it took time away from my baby. But I was able to get back my passion for medicine.
One difficulty I didn’t anticipate was the lack of comradeship. It’s not anybody’s fault but mine. When I started training, other interns had already transitioned through their most difficult times and formed their friendships. I felt behind and alone. I had severe imposter syndrome for the first time since starting med school. I am usually good with sharing my vulnerabilities and making new friends but my lack of time made that very difficult. I knew time would solve the problem and I just had to endure.
Nowadays the baby is sleep trained, things are in equilibrium, and life is good. My baby is amazingly lovely and the love I feel for him is something I have not previously experienced.
The PDs, staff, and chiefs were amazingly supportive. They were shocked when I shared some of my concerns about the match rules. They thought it was wrong and should be changed.
I have another friend who had a baby around the same time and her experience with her program was similarly supportive.
If you have any questions, I am happy to answer. If you need faster reply, pm me your email, since logging into sdn isn’t always easy for me.