ah HA! Someone has been reading my posts. I was wondering if someone would see this. Ok, your intern year has highs and lows. For most part, they last a month at a time. A good month flies, a bad month takes FOREVER. The first couple of days of internship are insanely discouraging. It takes some time to get through it. After that, it does get better. My continued sources of frustration revolve around the day to day. I dislike rounding forever. Standing in the halls listening to presentations on histories which I just dictated the night before are tedious. Sometimes, you have to feign interest. That is me. Rounds, follow up appointments, notes, setting up home care and nursing homes (placement issues), and waiting on hold for 5-10 minutes between your thousand of calls is mind numbing and frustrating. Heaven forbid you have a procedure to do that day, you can count on staying for a long time into the night to catch up after that. What can I say, I am not cut out for this. Residents (pgy 2) don't have to deal with this but out in the world they will. I am not cut out for primary care. I am not cut out for all this social work. That is why I am not IN medicine, rather I am a prelim.
FEH!
I don't know, I am very tired and I come home, eat, go to sleep and wake up in the morning hoping nobody coded overnight. Preround at 5 only to start the whole day over again. It's a bad month for me and you caught me at a trough.
Don't get me wrong here, I do NOT hate patients. Not in the least bit, I ALWAYS think of how I would like to be treated if myself or my family was the patient. Quite honestly, most of them would be surprised to learn how down I have gotten. I have a great mask.