i have been in private practice for 8 years now. i started with the intention of just getting some experience after residency before committing, then had a few kids and time got away from me.
i am not at a point where i feel i have to apply now or give up on heme/onc. and kicking myself for not going straight through after residency, since it all seems so much harder with a family.
so, my questions are about quality of life i guess. right now my hours and lifestyle are not perfect but very manageable, not much more that 40 per week (i am part time). but i am not satisfied taking care of the worried well and feeling as a generalist that i dont have in depth knowledge in any subject. I'm scared to be honest though of resenting the time commitment of fellowship. not scared of the pay cut, but time away from my kids and if that is worth it. and scared i will make the sacrifice then it wont live up to expectations. also wanting to do less clinical work and more science, so would want to do academic (my interest is heme) and know there are no guarantees after fellowship i will be able to do that and academics has its own frustrations.
i don't see myself in primary care forever. i thought about just leaving clincial practice and trying for a pharma job. i probably sound not committed enough, but at this point in my life am old enough to be realistic/practical....
thanks for reading. feel free to rip apart or offer advice
i am not at a point where i feel i have to apply now or give up on heme/onc. and kicking myself for not going straight through after residency, since it all seems so much harder with a family.
so, my questions are about quality of life i guess. right now my hours and lifestyle are not perfect but very manageable, not much more that 40 per week (i am part time). but i am not satisfied taking care of the worried well and feeling as a generalist that i dont have in depth knowledge in any subject. I'm scared to be honest though of resenting the time commitment of fellowship. not scared of the pay cut, but time away from my kids and if that is worth it. and scared i will make the sacrifice then it wont live up to expectations. also wanting to do less clinical work and more science, so would want to do academic (my interest is heme) and know there are no guarantees after fellowship i will be able to do that and academics has its own frustrations.
i don't see myself in primary care forever. i thought about just leaving clincial practice and trying for a pharma job. i probably sound not committed enough, but at this point in my life am old enough to be realistic/practical....
thanks for reading. feel free to rip apart or offer advice