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PGY-2 at most EM programs is where you get thrown to the wolves and start seeing a lot more critically ill patients and are suddenly expected to see a LOT more volume. If your program is like that as well, this feeling is normal. My first few months as a PGY-2 I had days where I was like "ok, so on top of the random BS patients I've got 3 patients on pressors.... I can't remember why any of them need pressors, and I'm not actually sure what room one of them is even in." This is normal and will pass. As others have said, lean on your seniors/attendings as needed but the entire point of this process is that you're going to make mistakes, you're going to learn from them, and its your senior's/attendings job to catch those mistakes before anything happens.I just started PGY-2, and I'm getting killed. I know every new PGY year has a learning curve, but I feel like I have a personality-level problem. I'm getting overwhelmed by the patient volume, to the point that I'm forgetting basic things like "less than 8, intubate", or considering antibiotics for toxic-appearing tachycardic patients, or even just remembering to check the labs I ordered. I'm also trash with critically ill patients. I get so anxious that I freeze up and have little luck controlling the room effectively. Is this crippling anxiety something people have overcome in this field? Or should I consider switching to another specialty?
I just started PGY-2, and I'm getting killed. I know every new PGY year has a learning curve, but I feel like I have a personality-level problem. I'm getting overwhelmed by the patient volume, to the point that I'm forgetting basic things like "less than 8, intubate", or considering antibiotics for toxic-appearing tachycardic patients, or even just remembering to check the labs I ordered. I'm also trash with critically ill patients. I get so anxious that I freeze up and have little luck controlling the room effectively. Is this crippling anxiety something people have overcome in this field? Or should I consider switching to another specialty?
I just started PGY-2, and I'm getting killed. I know every new PGY year has a learning curve, but I feel like I have a personality-level problem. I'm getting overwhelmed by the patient volume, to the point that I'm forgetting basic things like "less than 8, intubate", or considering antibiotics for toxic-appearing tachycardic patients, or even just remembering to check the labs I ordered. I'm also trash with critically ill patients. I get so anxious that I freeze up and have little luck controlling the room effectively. Is this crippling anxiety something people have overcome in this field? Or should I consider switching to another specialty?
As for the multi-tasking, that just takes practice.
If I wanted to characterize my internal state during the 1st 6 months of EM PGY-2, I could do it with the following single sentence:
"What the *^$# have I gotten myself into?"
I just started PGY-2, and I'm getting killed. I know every new PGY year has a learning curve, but I feel like I have a personality-level problem. I'm getting overwhelmed by the patient volume, to the point that I'm forgetting basic things like "less than 8, intubate", or considering antibiotics for toxic-appearing tachycardic patients, or even just remembering to check the labs I ordered. I'm also trash with critically ill patients. I get so anxious that I freeze up and have little luck controlling the room effectively. Is this crippling anxiety something people have overcome in this field? Or should I consider switching to another specialty?
Fellow PGY-2 right there with ya buddy. I felt like I got crushed last night and all I can hope for is that I'm better for it tomorrow. Had to lean on my senior and attending last night for something I didn't know how to manage. I try to keep reminding myself that even though I have more responsibility, I'm not supposed to know everything yet.I just started PGY-2, and I'm getting killed. I know every new PGY year has a learning curve, but I feel like I have a personality-level problem. I'm getting overwhelmed by the patient volume, to the point that I'm forgetting basic things like "less than 8, intubate", or considering antibiotics for toxic-appearing tachycardic patients, or even just remembering to check the labs I ordered. I'm also trash with critically ill patients. I get so anxious that I freeze up and have little luck controlling the room effectively. Is this crippling anxiety something people have overcome in this field? Or should I consider switching to another specialty?
Early second year is usually the toughest year of residency. Expectations are higher, you see more and push yourself. Knowledge and skills haven't fully developed yet. More or less what you described is normal. Unless of course if in comparison to your second year peers you are severely under performing and are being talked to by the program director with them planning on holding you back - usually that's a good indicator of you not doing well. If your program thinks you're doing okay and is letting you progress further, then you are probably doing okay
Bottom line, your colleagues aren't always the best indicator of their own skills, as there is some ego in play.
Also I can tell you, once I was a chief resident I had access to the actual stats on patients per hour and other metrics. EVERY resident had an inflated sense of how many PPH they were seeing.
Maybe he/she meant like, in summation, they never had an airway which they were unable to secure through some means, eventually?
There was resident in my program who said he never missed a tube.
I still don't believe him to this day.
The thread title is: "Am I just not built for this specialty?"I just started PGY-2, and I'm getting killed. I know every new PGY year has a learning curve, but I feel like I have a personality-level problem. I'm getting overwhelmed by the patient volume, to the point that I'm forgetting basic things like "less than 8, intubate", or considering antibiotics for toxic-appearing tachycardic patients, or even just remembering to check the labs I ordered. I'm also trash with critically ill patients. I get so anxious that I freeze up and have little luck controlling the room effectively. Is this crippling anxiety something people have overcome in this field? Or should I consider switching to another specialty?
It's also worth remembering you don't own that skill, either. It's on loan to you, and you don't get to keep it forever.
The thread title is: "Am I just not built for this specialty?"
Answer: No one is "built for EM." It's something you have to train yourself into, and it doesn't happen in a day, year, or even 3 years. I takes a whole career and I don't think anyone achieves the status of, "Now I'm built for EM." You don't one day all of a sudden roll off an assembly line, The Perfect EM Machine, as ready as you'll ever be, with nowhere to go but down. Maybe some people are built to be great athletes, others fashion models, due to winning the genetic lottery. But no one's built for EM from day 1. It just doesn't work that way.
You confidence and skill will grow overtime. There will be peaks and valleys along the way. July/August of any PGY year (including your first year after residency) is more likely to be a valley, than a peak. Although the learning curve levels off after your first year as an attending, it's never flat.
Maybe there's a career that's a better fit for you out there, maybe there's not, I don't know. But despite outward appearances, I don't think the skill of being an Emergency physician every gets to a point where it's perfected, and the skill is certainly not innate. Just when you think you've seen it all, is about the time you're due to be served something new. If there's one innate skill that makes one fit for EM in comparison to those who are unfit, it's simply having the audacity to show up, give it a shot and show up again. It's also worth remembering you don't own that skill, either. It's on loan to you, and you don't get to keep it forever.
I thought he was just referencing skill rot.Not sure what you mean by your last sentence though.
I thought he was just referencing skill rot.
I hear everything you're saying. My question just has to do with a part of what you're saying. Is enjoying resuscitating critically ill patients truly a requirement or a big 3 as you put it? From my understanding, it is understood that many go into EM because they have a passion for resus, but the truth of the matter is that very little resus is actually performed relatively speaking. As such, it is unwise to go into EM and only EM (no pivoting to crit care) if one solely enjoys EM for resus and cannot tolerate the lower acuity/UC/social aspects of the field (which comprise greater than 90-95% of the specialty and resus making up 5%, maybe 10%).With all respect for you, and I have much of that, I either don't totally agree with your statement or it's true for any profession. It doesn't really answer the OP's question.
I think there are people who are "built" for EM. Just like there are people "built" for a lot of jobs or tasks in life. These people are born with some innate abilities and then through hard work become very good at what they do. For instance, M Phelps (Swimmer), M Jordan (Basketball), J. Bogle (Investing), Yo-Yo Ma (Music), J. Garcia (Music), I mean the list goes on and on. For instance, M Phelps is built as an ideal swimmer. His body is perfect for that. And then through tremendous hard work, he became the best. There are numerous people who 1) work as hard as him and never become the best, or 2) are built like him but don't put in as much work at it, lollygag around, and don't become the best. And with EM you don't even need to become the best either.
I absolutely think there are doctors "built" to be ER doctors. Doesn't mean that all of them will be good though. Moreover...there are lots of ER doctors who perhaps weren't built for it but were drawn to the shift work, or the resuscitation part, and through hard work became very good at it.
I think the qualities to becoming an ER physician who is good and enjoys what they do involve three things 1) enjoying resuscitating critically ill patients, 2) knowing a little about a lot of specialties, and 3) enjoying shift-work with schedule day/night. You will be miserable if you have 0 of 3, and probably not be happy even if you have 2/3. Just imagine that you like #1 and #3 but not #2....then you would be suited being like an attending in an academic CICU where all you do is resuscitate and stabilize critically ill heart patients. You would go bonkers if you had to deal with critically ill tox or psych patients.
I agree with some of the other things you wrote. Confidence will grow. You have to work at it. It takes practice. Not sure what you mean by your last sentence though.
I hear everything you're saying. My question just has to do with a part of what you're saying. Is enjoying resuscitating critically ill patients truly a requirement or a big 3 as you put it? From my understanding, it is understood that many go into EM because they have a passion for resus, but the truth of the matter is that very little resus is actually performed relatively speaking. As such, it is unwise to go into EM and only EM (no pivoting to crit care) if one solely enjoys EM for resus and cannot tolerate the lower acuity/UC/social aspects of the field (which comprise greater than 90-95% of the specialty and resus making up 5%, maybe 10%).
I agree and appreciate the insight. I'm not particularly fond of resus, but I'm already locked and loaded into this field as a resident and wonder if I'm going to be in for a world of hurt down the road.Yup....I hear ya. We do very little resus, but it's the most important part of this job. Without question we are largely judged by the proverbial EM Gods on how we do with critically ill patients. It's not important if we miss a rheumatological condition that is causing someone's elbow effusion, but it is important if we miss working up, or considering, a PE in someone with chest pain, HR 120, and BP 100/60.
Now a prescient, advanced question arises from your point. If 95% of the patients we see need no resuscitation and 5% do...can be we be really good and happy with our job if we excel with the former and are average (or below average) with the latter? That is a game of brinksmanship I would not want my ER doctor treating me to fall under.
I agree and appreciate the insight. I'm not particularly fond of resus, but I'm already locked and loaded into this field as a resident and wonder if I'm going to be in for a world of hurt down the road.
I meant it literally, @RoyBasch got it. To whatever extent you've built yourself to be fit to be an ER doc, intellectually, psychologically, emotionally, or physically, is not yours to keep forever. In other words, you may have it today, but you won't have it forever. You don't own it, it's on loan to you. There will be a day, you say, "I can't do this anymore," and you won't be able to do it anymore.Not sure what you mean by your last sentence though.
It could be skill rot. It could be from losing the desire, losing the physical ability, or emotional exhaustion. Either way, the fuse burns.I thought he was just referencing skill rot.