I was living in this run down apartment off-campus that did not allow pets and I reeeeeeeeeeeeeally wanted a puppy. On the other side of town was this low-priced cooperative. Let's call it "Happy Village" They were town houses. 8K to buy in. Rent thereafter was like 400/month with maintenance & utilities included for a two bedroom. It was awesome, pool, workout area, club house, free upscale laundry facilities, excellent security. And they allowed pets. Problem was, there was a 42-person wait list. I couldn't get in.
Anyway, I was on my psych rotation and there was this unbelievable frequent flyer - beyond help. Let's say her name is "Sam". This was Sam's 20th hospitalization. I actually thought she just lived at the hospital. Everyday she kept talking about throwing herself in front of a train. So I was on call one weekend with my attending and told not to discharge her no matter that she had expressed no suicidal ideation and was now acting halfway sane. I said okay, come Monday her psychiatrist says thanks to us for not discharging her. Alright. He assesses the situation and he discharges her that day. Tuesday during morning report one of the social workers says she just heard on the radio coming into work that "a body had just been found at the railroad tracks." And the conductor swears 'that somebody' walked intentionally onto the tracks. Another social worker adds, I bet it was "Sam." Then another and another all nodding in agreement. I said why do you think that it was her. That's way across town. Answer came back "Sam" lives just two blocks away from the tracks at "Happy Village." I was like, NO WAY!
I couldn't wait for morning report to be finished. I made sure everyone cleared out of the room then called "Happy Village" and asked for the umpteenth time if "Happy Village" had an immediate opening right now in the middle-of-the-month. 'No.' So I asked. "Are you sure." Yes, the business office says. I add, "I can move in tomorrow if there's an opening, really I can." She insists, there is no opening. "But how do you know there won't be an opening tomorrow." We don't get openings in the middle-of-the-month. "But what if say, there was an opening, could I move in?" She says "look, let me make it perfectly clear, there are no openings. There are NEVER any openings. Everyone is happy at 'Happy Village' "I add, well what if say someone wasn't happy.
Finally, I gave up and thought if I say one more word, the HIPAA Police are going to come get me. I would have slept on her old bed sheets. I wanted that place sooooooooo bad.
And Yeah, they did have an opening the next day. It was Sam.
I couldn't believe who I turned into on that rotation. I was just as crazy as the rest.
So, the worst thing I ever did, ...was not care.