Mine is pretty different and multifaceted. I didn't grow up wanting to be a doctor, nor in a household that valued my education at all. I was told my entire childhood that doctors were bad and basically schilling poison to people, so I was never allowed to go for my own health care.
As a teenager I battled pretty severe depression (and CPTSD but I had no idea at the time) and I knew something was off with my mental health. Like every teen who is depressed/unhappy I decided I should become a psychiatrist because fixing other people would surely fix me
. I also loved grey's anatomy (yes, please eye roll at 16 year old me) and thought being a doctor looked like fun. I literally had *no* idea what being pre-med entailed, but at 17 I decided that's what I would do and started college with those plans. I should also say, I was homeschooled for most of my life, heavily religion-based, so I was WAY behind in terms of normal education standards. I loved reading, so no issues there, but I had never experienced the rigor of classes at the undergraduate level. I also had NO idea how to study. So after a semester of pre-med I switched to pre-PT, then got scared off by Ochem, and switched to exercise science which I did really love and I excelled in.
Throughout my 20s I worked in the outdoor/fitness industry and often times worked 2-3 jobs at a time to make ends meet, but I was happy because I was competing in mountain biking and running, and kind of living a dream life. I never really gave a lot of thought to what I wanted to do for my "career" because my focus was on myself and racing. Going back to school was always in the back of my mind, but I didn't want that more than I wanted to be an athlete. In my late 20s I was unfortunately badly injured, and after multiple surgeries I am no longer able to compete or really ride bikes or run anymore. This threw my life into a total tailspin. I literally had no idea who I was outside of my identity as an athlete and it took me years to find out who I was as a person, outside of my external abilities. Anyway, through this process I also went to a LOT of therapy, and figured out that a lot of my pain/other issues was caused by the abuse I experienced as a child (which I literally had never talked about/processed). I had an *amazing* psychiatrist who was the first person to talk to me about how trauma lives in our bodies and can manifest as illness and chronic pain. She really opened up my eyes to this whole world of healing/possibility that I'd never experienced, and it inspired me to learn more about specifically trauma/ptsd and pain. This was hugely helpful for me in my journey of acceptance of my pain, and also how to live a full life despite the fact that the one thing I loved most had been taken away.
So that was one big inspiration for me, just having this incredible doctor caring for me, and that made me want to train and do the same for others. I feel like trauma/ptsd/pain are not widely talked about *still* and there is still so much new research and information coming out. I would love to be able to help others the way she helped me. Additionally, in my years dealing with chronic pain/injuries, I have sadly had so many bad experiences with doctors. I hope with my personal experiences dealing with pain that I can be an empathetic ear to patients who are dealing with similar things, and not treat them as if they are just "stressed" or "crazy" which has sadly been how I was treated by some doctors.
I also personally really needed *something* more in my life. I've been working a very boring corporate job for the past few years, since I quit bike racing. During Covid we started working from home, and my life became so small. I woke up one morning and realized....I cannot do this for the rest of my life. I have always been an extremely driven person, and I had no where to focus that drive onto anymore, since I couldn't train as an athlete. I didn't feel like my job was making a difference in anyone's life, and I needed more purpose to my work. I decided that I would start focusing that extra drive/energy towards school to prepare for med school, and it's been the best decision I ever made. I am the kind of person that needs something in their life that is consuming and a driving force. Some people love down time and work/life balance, I personally hate it. So that was another thing that factored in for me.
Lastly, I lived in a rural community for 5 years, and the health care situation was terrible. I had many friends with mental health issues that could not get in with a Dr for multiple years. Just getting in to see an OB or a family med doctor would be months and months. When I had my injuries I had to drive 2-3 hours multiple times a month to see an actual doctor who was qualified. So I'd love to work in a rural community after graduating, either practicing family med or psych. I've always wanted to have land and live rurally, so that would be a dream come true for me.