brotherbloat said:
And as for the remark about being self-centered, that is very saddening to me. These forums are for getting others' feedback and ideas, and if that makes me sound self-centered, then I apologize.
No need to apologize. It's just an observation. I qualified it by saying you seemed a
little self-centered... which, in retrospect, probably wasn't an adequate word. Perhaps... a touch on the self-absorbed side is a better descriptor.
brotherbloat said:
I have a made a huge effort to try and meet people. Even my husband has repeatedly said that he's very proud of what I've been doing to try to meet people.
Well, I don't 100% believe you. Or, maybe you're making TOO much of an effort. You know, people can smell anxiousness and desperation from a mile away. And, if you're meeting a new woman and "dumping" on her within a short time of making her acquaintance (not necessarily saying that you are, but it wouldn't surprise me based on your style of extreme openness on this forum) that can tend to scare people away.
brotherbloat said:
I've met about 15 women off Craig's List who posted ads looking for friends/ I posted as well. But none of them have turned into anything more than a coffee once in awhile, which isn't what I'm looking for.
First off, if you are in a town that has a Craigslist, I can't feel that bad for you. If you told me you were in Dubuque or Fargo, on the other hand, I might have a tad more sympathy. Furthermore, you've met 15 women through Craigslist and you can't seem to meet-up more than once or twice? Maybe what I said above is partly true... just tossing out ideas here.
brotherbloat said:
In addition, I started a women's cooking club through Craig's List, which will meet for the first time next week, maybe that will be promising.
Promising indeed... good luck...
brotherbloat said:
I also volunteer on the weekends, but the place I volunteer at attracts mostly senior citizens, it appeaars.
Good to volunteer... nothing wrong with having a few "old fogie" friends too...
brotherbloat said:
I also take a group guitar class, but no friends from there yet. But making friends is harder than it might look--much harder!
Continue to be patient.
brotherbloat said:
I'm unemployed (looking), I'm not currently in school, and I live in an area made up mostly of old people (my building and my neighborhood.)
Well, this is a self-esteem killer, for sure. And, where you live is where you eat and lay your head on the pillow. Continue your efforts not to become a shut-in.
brotherbloat said:
I wish it were as easy as someone in my yoga class coming up to me and saying, "would you like to get some coffee?" Because whenever I go up to people and say things like that either they always say they're too "crazy busy" with their "hectic" lives to do stuff like that right now, or we do go and it's a one-time deal, because I get the sense they're not in the market for new friends.
Perhaps you need to take it slower? It's hard to approach people - especially strangers - and strike up a conversation or make a friend, especially if there's no context. Do what a lot of guys do when they want to get to know a woman better and show them that they are not a "threat" or anything. Find something unusual and comment on it one time, saying nothing more. Don't say something like, "That's a nice necklace you have. Want to go get coffee?" or she's going to think you're a raging lezbo looking to score. Just ease into getting to know someone. This is SO much easier, especially if you know you're going to see them again at Yoga class. You can very easily develop a context. You just got to find your "in" and develop it slowly. If you go too fast, you're going to scare people off.
And, don't dump. Don't find someone who is willing to meet you out and immediately start emotionally unloading on them. There are no "insta-friends" in this world. Friendships take time and common ground to develop. You may just be having false expectations of how fast you think another woman is going to "bond" with you because you appear to be in an especially needy place right now. Give friendships time to develop. Mention that your husband is a doctor. See if you can go out together as couples. Etc., etc.
You may be both trying too hard and not trying hard enough at the same time.
brotherbloat said:
I feel like the only one who's not "crazy busy"--I never really have any plans, and I'm pretty much always doing stuff out alone. And man, I really hate that term! So for the person who said I'm sitting home wallowing, I think that's hardly the case.
You're wallowing right now.
brotherbloat said:
My husband's residency program does not have any kind of spousal support group, and I really don't feel like being the person to start one.
Fine. At least one other great opportunity lost. Or, are you just afraid it will be a failure? No one will show up? Someone "better" than you will take it over once you get it started? What's the real issue here?
brotherbloat said:
So I have taken people's advice--it's what I've been doing for the past two years since I moved here to try and meet people, but making a good effort sometimes just isn't enough, and I don't know what is. I don't expect to be hanging out with friends all of the time--but right now it's _none_ of the time, and I'd like it to be some of the time.
If you are being
honest with us and - more importantly - yourself here, you're obviously doing it wrong then. If you live in a city with a Craigslist, then I can't feel sorry for you because that means that there are tons of people around. You gotta change your approach, your expectations, your methodology... something. Because, it isn't the town you live in.
brotherbloat said:
I am very thankful that my husband does not go out "with the boys" when he's not working. However, I do wish we could spend some more quality time together. Either he's asleep on the couch out of exhaustion when he's home or studying. I often feel left out in the cold.
Again, that's part of the deal with being married to a doctor. You need to tell him that, although he's tired, he's got to make an effort to make your marriage a happy marriage too. And, part of this is sucking it up and going out with you on the weekends instead of lazing on the couch. You have to have
your time together, and perhaps there are other couples in his program that you can do stuff with.
If you make these efforts and it still isn't working, then I have to say that you gotta look at what you're doing to scare people off. I've given you some additional ideas above, and I'm not suggesting that you need to change the core of who you are as a person. But, if you're doing the same things over and over again and getting the same results, I gotta a hint for you: it's not "everyone else" who's got the problems.
I have single and married female friends who have great social lives, both together with their husbands and (in the case of the unmarried ones) alone with their girlfriends. The common theme these women have is that they aren't so self-absorbed when they are around others. They are engaging. They are outwardly directed and make the people around them feel special. They don't focus on having people in their life solely to make themselves feel better. They enrich the lives of those around them. In fact, one of these female friends is married to a PGY-3 Urology resident who, I can assure you, works every bit as much as your husband. They have a two-year-old, and they STILL make an effort to do stuff together as a couple and with their adult friends. They may be abnormally high-functioning people in that regard, but they make it work. And, a big part of that is her husband's (my friend's) willingness to still do things even when he's exhausted.
So, I'm not going to buy-in to your pity party. I'm sorry if that offends you. There are a lot of people who have it a lot worse than you. Unless you are a troll who lives under a bridge and is so hideous that you scare small children, I refuse to believe that you can't make friends... and, even then, I bet that troll could make a friend or two if she made the effort to be an outwardly directed, non-emotional-black-hole that I surmise that you currently are in your sad state of affairs.
Sorry, as well, if I'm being a little tough with you. I don't know you and I'm not even going to pretend that I can analyze everything about you on this forum, but I have seen your wallowing-in-self-pity type before. You are your own worst enemy. You sabotage relationships with your excessive neediness before they can even get started, and then you stand there and scratch your head as you see asses and elbows beating a hasty retreat from your presence.
Learn the meaning of this word: blithe. Practice being that way when you meet someone. Smile a lot. Don't give the impression that you are looking for a victim to unload your emotional baggage on. Don't be overeager. Just relax. Focus on being THEIR friend first.
You'll be surprised at the results. This is simple stuff that most of us learned in first grade, but many forget after we supposedly grew up.
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