You need to clear your head from all of this. Maybe take a year or two off, work somewhere, do a bit of traveling (maybe road trips), do a hobby, spend some time with people, see the world a bit. You're making yourself miserable to begin with and, from your posts, you don't have a fine tuned goal in mind, a definitive path or direction. Lots of uncertainties and self doubt in your path. I hope you're not being pressured by anyone. Don't let people pressure you, even your family (parents, siblings) if this is the case. You live your life, not theirs, and the future is yours. You do have a future...Maybe forget health related careers altogether. Who knows, you will probably be a lot better and happier. Take some time off is highly recommended. Just be happy that you're not in total debt...yet. The whole country is not a scam, but the student loans system and the schools are a total scam nowadays.
