actually im a 15 yr old kid trying to sound like a doctor because i dont really understand whats going on.
Sorry, I should have actually answered your question.
In fairness, I am not an Orthopedic Surgeon, I am a medical student starting my internship in the field this June. Most of the folks on here, from what I gather, are either in their Orthopedics Residency, or like me, getting ready for it.
I'm sorry this has happened to you. I can only imagine what an impact this must be on someone who is/was active in sports.
I can't say for sure, but I suspect that most people on this board are going to be reluctant to answer your question about "what's going on". Most physicians feel that they need to physically evaluate a patient and have full access to their history and records before giving an opinion. Probably the most destructive thing anyone here could do, would be to tell you, "I think this is what happened . . . " when actually it was something else. And while you know quite a few details about your diagnosis and surgery, there are many more details any physician would need to know before they could give an informed opinion. These details would be found in your medical records and xrays, which few people have access to or know how to read.
The best person to answer your questions is your Pediatric Orthopedic Surgeon. Given your original post, you sound reasonably intelligent and mature. I would suggest this: Go to your mom/dad, and tell them you want an appointment to talk to your doctor about what is going on. Although surgeons are very busy people, it is likely that yours will agree to your request.
Before you go, sit down and make a list of questions that you want answered. Very often, teenagers have a lot of questions and then forget all them the moment they get to their doctor's office. If you have a list of questions, and your doctor doesn't have any appointments in the near future, he/she may even agree to correspond by email.
Again, I'm sorry this happened to you. I wish you the best of luck and a speedy recovery.