What's up gang.
Anybody else just really not feeling their third year/fourth year rotations?
IDK if it's mainly cause of my program, or being at a DO school, but I HATE feeling this way. I definitely try and I definitely hold my composure and just go with the flow. My evals and COMATs have been in the Pass/High Pass range thus far (Sorry... Not the Honors like 90% of the folks on this site
) and I try to go into each rotation with a positive mindset and do my job....
BUT jesus... I feel like it's just one all suckfest of glorified shadowing, bitchy obese nurses being sarcastic, being talked down to, and learning to just take **** from everybody and anybody.
I'm genuinely just ****ing hating this **** thus far.
You want me to set up the room for the next patient? Sure. I'd be glad to.
But if I ask where this lubricant gel is or where this set of gloves or whatever is at and if you could show me so that I don't have to ask next tine... and you sigh and make me feel like a burden... then wtf?
Lol Eff off and get that **** yourself. I'm not paying to set up a stupid ass room for your lazy ass because you don't want to. I'm doing it because I genuinely want to get the patient in faster and get them out... just like you. Like WTF? This isn't even my job.
If we have downtime and I whip out my phone to do questions or bring my books to read up on a certain topic, my preceptor wants me to start doing his/her charting for him. THAT"S NOT MY GODDAMN JOB. WTF! I'M HERE TO LEARN. I"M HERE TO PERFECT MY PHYSICAL EXAM SKILLS, MY DIFFERENTIALS, AND MY GODDAMN PRESENTATION.... NOT TO BE YOUR LITTLE COMPUTER SLAVE clicking away on your stupid EMR to check boxes and look up ICD 10 codes for you!
Or how about being sent into a room with NO IDEA what the patient is here for. What's the chief complaint? What's their vitals? WTF am I doing? Like this is bull****. Now the patient looks at me like I'm some clueless idiot and they are already pissed they had to wait 15 minutes for somebody to see them at all.
I REALLY THINK rotations should be HALF-DAYS. That's MORE than enough time for me to decide if I like your specialty. The first 2 c sections are all I need to know that I hate OB. The first appendectomy and stupid early morning rounds and bitchy attending is all I need to see that let's me know I hate surgery. The first bitchy parent and their annoying ass child who won't sit still for me to do a physical exam while they are kicking and screaming is all I need to see to let me know I hate peds.
Idk.
Maybe I'm burnt out.
I needed to vent.
Some major advice to you pre-meds or first and second years that may be reading this - MAKE SURE YOUR SCHOOL HAS LEGIT PLACES FOR YOU TO ROTATE. Dedicated studying time is nice and all... but your real chances to learn occur in the real life and right now my knowledge (the very little I have) isn't being applied in the right context.
I could get more from reading and doing questions rather than being in clinic.
good luck to y'all though.