It's kind of a long story but basically my committee consists of one person who writes the letters for the entire school. She has something of a reputation. During the committee submission time line, I sort of missed a deadline then went over her head to get it accepted. I seriously considered backing out, but my PI told me that she would never be that unprofessional and I, like a ******, believed him.
Later, I get a call in the summer where she says she afraid I'll bomb all my interviews and tells me how I bombed her interview, but she would try to suggest I'm trying to improve my poor communication skills, or something to that effect. Honestly the phone call woke me up and I couldn't think of just to say beyond "ok" during that conversation.
Later, interviews brought it up multiple times during the cycle. When I called schools post rejection for feedback, they were unanimously evasive, except for my first interview which I totally bombed on every level.
Basically, I learned never to trust people. They're garbage and they'll stab you in the back.
Ironically, last year I was much closed to med school ideal. I was somewhat altruistic and empathetic. I legit thought I could do good or some bull**** like that. I got in on October 15th this cycle, and I'm jaded and apathetic about others.
