As an M3 trying to pick a specialty, I found what I really like: neurosurgery. From the first time I cut the dura, I knew that I could not really do anything else. I love the challenge, the epinephrine that infuses your entire body when you are in the OR, I love the 20 hour surgeries and the emergency craniotomy at 2 am. But I sadly realize that if I choose this path I will probably never see my kids or my spouse again. I will be stuck somewhere on Q4 or Q3 for the next 7 years of my life, and possible for the rest of my life. I recently saw a movie where one of the characters says to another something along the lines of You are like the leprechaun on the cornflake box, chasing the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow - but when he gets there at the end of the day it is just cornflakes. So I sit here and wonder, and ponder over and over about this decision: should I or should I not choose to do neurosurgery? If any of you out there have any experience please share.