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This is more of a rant than a question but any input is welcome...
Year 1 is done. I am happy with my performance etc. but I just feel like s@!$. I have learned a ton but I feel like everything evaporated two weeks into the summer.
I am working in an ED as a tech. I did that before med school as well. It's daunting to see that people who started with me are done with their 9 month RN program and are doing real stuff and make stupid comments like "Oh, X is on break, Y is on break, Z is not there either so... I am in charge!" (they mean themselves) and when I point out that Dr. P is still there they say that "They don't count..." That's just frustrating.
I feel like I know more things than before starting med school but still am not able to "act" appropriately - like we had a 56h baby come in in resp. distress and I still wasn't able to tell if the baby looks fine or dead just by looking. Still can't tell if the baby looks mottled or not. Please tell me this will come one day!
We had an altered older gentleman brought by EMS and one of the nurses decided to play with me and asked me "What do you think is wrong with this guy?" I didn't know that she wanted a whole differential and told her that it could be thiamine deficiency. In fairness, he looked like a long-time alcohol user, had nystagmus etc. She looked at me like I am an idiot and started spewing "Well, it could be a stroke, hypoglycemia, high ammonia..." I could've told her the same if I wasn't put on the spot like that. Still - not proud of myself for saying what I said. When I brought it up to the doc, the doc asked "Is this like the Wernicke's thing?" They said they've never ever seen it in real life. The school tried to make us super sensitive to that like "You will for sure see it a lot of times!" WTF? I don't know what to think anymore...
I know that I still have more time but reading through SDN a few days ago, I started freaking out about clinical rotations (year 3). How am I supposed to do well if the grading is subjective? I can work hard etc. no problem, but I am just freaking out! Do I just trust the process?
Just drowning here... help.
Year 1 is done. I am happy with my performance etc. but I just feel like s@!$. I have learned a ton but I feel like everything evaporated two weeks into the summer.
I am working in an ED as a tech. I did that before med school as well. It's daunting to see that people who started with me are done with their 9 month RN program and are doing real stuff and make stupid comments like "Oh, X is on break, Y is on break, Z is not there either so... I am in charge!" (they mean themselves) and when I point out that Dr. P is still there they say that "They don't count..." That's just frustrating.
I feel like I know more things than before starting med school but still am not able to "act" appropriately - like we had a 56h baby come in in resp. distress and I still wasn't able to tell if the baby looks fine or dead just by looking. Still can't tell if the baby looks mottled or not. Please tell me this will come one day!
We had an altered older gentleman brought by EMS and one of the nurses decided to play with me and asked me "What do you think is wrong with this guy?" I didn't know that she wanted a whole differential and told her that it could be thiamine deficiency. In fairness, he looked like a long-time alcohol user, had nystagmus etc. She looked at me like I am an idiot and started spewing "Well, it could be a stroke, hypoglycemia, high ammonia..." I could've told her the same if I wasn't put on the spot like that. Still - not proud of myself for saying what I said. When I brought it up to the doc, the doc asked "Is this like the Wernicke's thing?" They said they've never ever seen it in real life. The school tried to make us super sensitive to that like "You will for sure see it a lot of times!" WTF? I don't know what to think anymore...
I know that I still have more time but reading through SDN a few days ago, I started freaking out about clinical rotations (year 3). How am I supposed to do well if the grading is subjective? I can work hard etc. no problem, but I am just freaking out! Do I just trust the process?
Just drowning here... help.