Hi all... didn't realize I made an account here so long ago.... but here goes...
IMG student, English first language and no problems in this portion, passed CIS portion only a little more than marginally, failed ICE. Step 1 230s and Step 2 CK 230s from last year and this year... trying to apply to IM.
Right now there is no sub-heading for ICE portion or CIS, so I don't even have any feedback on which portion I did wrong. I failed ICE though.
Honestly I don't understand what happened. I've been reading here that some passed and did not finish this or that aspect, or didn't close, or didn't finish the pt interview portion..... none of those things happened to me and I still failed so now I feel completely worthless....... >.>
I felt actually not that bad coming out of it and now I see that CS scoring people see it MUCH differently than I did.... so now I feel like an idiot loser who can't do a proper HPI or get a differential anymore >.>
My physical exam skills are not poor, but not great, I would say weak maybe. And I think this was my weakest portion.... so now I'm doubting everything I did so I can't even understand what I did right or wrong on PE, or did they just hate my patient notes?? I took the CS practice from Kaplan and I thought I got a good impression on how they wanted patient notes.... so I did it pretty much how they asked me to in the Kaplan course after they gave feedback.....
I never ran out of time. I feel like I got a great HPI on all patients but my last one..... I don't even.... >.>
I missed questions here and there on patient interview... I tried to ask as many pertinent ones as possible... I always repeated the history they gave me back to me, always washed hands before PE, always did ROS, always got medical history, always closed, and counselled on all except one guy.... I felt I was being nice but apparently I'm a big idiot for thinking that because my CIS wasn't that good anyway >.>
One time I forgot to counsel with a *healthy* smoker who had a cough, and I realized as soon as I left that station, but I'm pretty sure I did everything else for that guy, would counselling harm me so badly there? For almost all the patients I felt I did a reasonable job, at least enough to pass.... except the last patient.....
The last patient I met I didn't understand well and it made me scared during the process... her CC was "feeling tired" and every question I asked related to thyroid and depression and everything I asked was "no no no no." So like I didn't get any HPI from her. So now I feel like I suck at HPI and have to fear that every program is going to look at me the same like I'm a ******.... I even asked her like 3 times "is there anything else you would like to talk about?" and I got nada every time.... so what I am supposed to do in that situation I don't understand...... >.>
Like.... I don't even know how I failed. I don't know what I could've done so awful that made me fail? The only other glaring mistake I can remember is one note I barely finished..... but enough to fail....? I don't know....
I've been so afraid and depressed of what this is going to do or is already doing to my applications that I've missed this whole week of rotations... I've been having such an awesome time in 4th year, having a great time talking to patients and helping out my residents on electives, and now after I got the score I feel like I ran into a brick wall..... I don't know what to do. I've already applied to get a CS permit the day I found out but what else am I supposed to do?
P.S.
I have a question about draping.... every patient I saw already had a drape on them, all 12 patients, it was already on their laps. Was I supposed to do something that accounts for ICE portion here? Put another drape on them? Am I supposed to open the drape, it seemed already open to me and covering them..... I don't know what I was supposed to do..... >.>
Anyway I wrote in philly and I just don't know.... if the CS goal was to make CS fails feel inadequate and useless.... goal achieved. Not only I get to fail.... I lose some interviews I guess and now I owe another $1500, thanks UMSLE!!!!