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I need to extend this out to you guys because I truly don't know what to do or think. I was an average med student grade-wise but did very well during my clerkships due to good interpersonal skills/bedside manner/IM bread an butter cases. I though I would get into an ok place for residency and surprisingly matched into a very good program. I started internal med residency this July.
Idk if it's because the patients are a lot more complex at this program, if I forgot everything from med school, or just don't have a good foundation but I feel like my medical knowledge is completely insufficient. I feel like I know nothing, as if I never went to med school. What if I just memorized things and understood important concepts on the surface and somehow was able to get this far that way? I cannot fathom knowing as much as my seniors by the end of this year and I do not believe I am on the same level as most of my co-interns. To clarify, I have not gotten any negative feedback thus far but this is with seniors holding my hand a lot of the way and explaining things to me. I have gotten good evals thus far and have made some progress but I am terrified that I will be found out. A large component of this could be imposture syndrome but I feel the desperate need to study and revisit some foundational concepts. Is that still possible to do in intern year because I feel like it is too late at this point.
Has anyone ever felt this way and are there any resources I can quickly go through that are effective for reinforcing some of the foundational concepts? I need to do something because I am extremely anxious going into work every day and my hesitancy to do anything is very evident. I know I am not supposed to be at senior or attending level as an intern, but when asked some questions that I know are basic, I just freeze up and can't remember or give an answer. Any advice or insight would be much appreciated. Sorry for the long rant I am just panicking :/
Idk if it's because the patients are a lot more complex at this program, if I forgot everything from med school, or just don't have a good foundation but I feel like my medical knowledge is completely insufficient. I feel like I know nothing, as if I never went to med school. What if I just memorized things and understood important concepts on the surface and somehow was able to get this far that way? I cannot fathom knowing as much as my seniors by the end of this year and I do not believe I am on the same level as most of my co-interns. To clarify, I have not gotten any negative feedback thus far but this is with seniors holding my hand a lot of the way and explaining things to me. I have gotten good evals thus far and have made some progress but I am terrified that I will be found out. A large component of this could be imposture syndrome but I feel the desperate need to study and revisit some foundational concepts. Is that still possible to do in intern year because I feel like it is too late at this point.
Has anyone ever felt this way and are there any resources I can quickly go through that are effective for reinforcing some of the foundational concepts? I need to do something because I am extremely anxious going into work every day and my hesitancy to do anything is very evident. I know I am not supposed to be at senior or attending level as an intern, but when asked some questions that I know are basic, I just freeze up and can't remember or give an answer. Any advice or insight would be much appreciated. Sorry for the long rant I am just panicking :/