i've recently (maybe in the past 3 months) developed an intense phobia of aids/syphilus/anything the immune system can handle. what is rediculous is that im not sexually active, have never shared, or used for that matter, needles. ive convinced myself that blood and other body fluids are on everything in public places. i wash my hands constantly. showering takes forever. ive devised elaborate rituals of eating and sleeping, and both have been effected negatively. i handle my laundry only after prepping like a surgeon. i see no improvement in my condition. its getting worse. i dont sit in certain chairs because they've had shoes on them, and shoes could have some fluid on them that could get in through my groin. i think ive taken a quirk and slowly developed it to the point of insanity. i know that people arent catching aids like a cold. health teachers arent lecturing on the dangers of handling food after touching a doorknob. but i cant convince myself im safe. its as if im covered in scorpians and im the only one who can see them. is there anything i can do myself to stop this unhealthy obsession, short of medicating myself? oh, and maybe this is relavant: i tend to focus on number of washes and number of steps to contamination from the original contaigant.