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I'm so sad,desperate and hopeless right now ....I really don't know what should I do...
My plan was to take pre_reqs while studying for MS and they apply to med school (as an international student).
I decided to keep this secrect for 2 3 years when I was applying for MS in US.
Then because people were asking me why don't you apply for PhD when you might lose your F1 visa and put yourself in trouble! I just told some ppl around me and my parents that I want to study medicine...I thought I'll become less nervous when I don't have to keep such a secret(I'm a very anxious and nervous ,my avater is really me!always scared of something)
Then suddenly everybody started to discourage me,my mom said don't even think of it because it's crazy and you can't do it...you should just get your PhD,others said you are an international student and you can't really do whatever you want ,be realistic,others said you are old and you had to decide sooner and now you can't change it...,some said you just like being a doctor to say you can ,not because you like it................
Being a doctor is what I really want and without it I can't even think of living ...what kept me motivated about life was hoping to study medicine someday...I'm really unhappy about what I'm doing now and I really don't want to get my PhD in this field and do it for the rest of my life...but with all these discouraging comments I'm thinking maybe I can't even do it,
I'm good at science cousres and did well in pre_reqs till now but I'm not sure if I can handle verbal ,and something else is that I was never used to study a lot and I don't know if I can handle studying for 7 8 hours a day.
To be honest from when I was a child I thought I'm so clever,exceptional,talented....,now I think I'm so dumb,weak and crazy...
I don't have any motivation other than going to medical school and I think if I don't do it I'll be unhappy for the rest of my life....right now I see all my life is ruined ....
Can you tell me how should I find out if my love is real or not?It's what many ppl tell me that you don't really love it.
Then how much studying is required in medschool ,like 100 200 ...pages a day,and how can I find out if I can do it or not?
Is it really realistic for an international non-trad to do this?that's what many others tell me it's not ...
Sorry for all my English mistakes I can't compose my mind and write...
My plan was to take pre_reqs while studying for MS and they apply to med school (as an international student).
I decided to keep this secrect for 2 3 years when I was applying for MS in US.
Then because people were asking me why don't you apply for PhD when you might lose your F1 visa and put yourself in trouble! I just told some ppl around me and my parents that I want to study medicine...I thought I'll become less nervous when I don't have to keep such a secret(I'm a very anxious and nervous ,my avater is really me!always scared of something)
Then suddenly everybody started to discourage me,my mom said don't even think of it because it's crazy and you can't do it...you should just get your PhD,others said you are an international student and you can't really do whatever you want ,be realistic,others said you are old and you had to decide sooner and now you can't change it...,some said you just like being a doctor to say you can ,not because you like it................
Being a doctor is what I really want and without it I can't even think of living ...what kept me motivated about life was hoping to study medicine someday...I'm really unhappy about what I'm doing now and I really don't want to get my PhD in this field and do it for the rest of my life...but with all these discouraging comments I'm thinking maybe I can't even do it,
I'm good at science cousres and did well in pre_reqs till now but I'm not sure if I can handle verbal ,and something else is that I was never used to study a lot and I don't know if I can handle studying for 7 8 hours a day.
To be honest from when I was a child I thought I'm so clever,exceptional,talented....,now I think I'm so dumb,weak and crazy...
I don't have any motivation other than going to medical school and I think if I don't do it I'll be unhappy for the rest of my life....right now I see all my life is ruined ....
Can you tell me how should I find out if my love is real or not?It's what many ppl tell me that you don't really love it.
Then how much studying is required in medschool ,like 100 200 ...pages a day,and how can I find out if I can do it or not?
Is it really realistic for an international non-trad to do this?that's what many others tell me it's not ...
Sorry for all my English mistakes I can't compose my mind and write...