I think it does take some work for someone to improve from failing every single test in his or her first month of medical school to a GPA of 3.60s (acknowledge that it is still not competitive but definitely not something that would lead to a MOU). I do admit that when I concentrate on something (e.g. Level 2), I tend to pay less attention to other things (e.g. assuring that I conact a specific faculty member every two weeks without reminders). I do not absolutely have to do medicine and the multiple alternatives I have tried part time but long term have altogether helped me a lot in terms of affording the costs of studying medicine alone in a foreign country. Still I found practicing certain form of medicine the most rewarding, stable, and feasible option (if doing it in China counts).This thread just makes me wonder, can really anyone do medicine? OP I know you've worked hard to get to med school but it doesn't seem like you kept working hard once you got there. Are you absolutely sure you have to do this? I think you decided you wanted to do this and never considered alternatives.
If you're absolutely convinced this is the path for you, best of luck OP but it just feels like your character isn't suited well for medicine. Inability to stay awake for long periods of time, lack of emotional control, poor personal skills, and a strong self serving bias in retrospection. I will say that you don't seem like someone who gives up easily but at the same time neither do you come off as someone who is willing to put in the work needed to get where they want to be. I think you need to seriously look at yourself and ask, "would I want to be a patient of a doctor with my educational profile and history?" Like this isn't even an issue of feasibility at this point but maybe even ethics which I think might be why your preceptor refused to revise his eval.
I'm premed personally so take this with a grain of salt but your story has been a huge wake-up call for me that working hard won't stop for me the moment I get into med school.
Reading this thread gives me the impression that you care more about the status of medicine than treating patients but again that might just be me and I'm not even officially in the field of medicine.
Thanks for the suggestions and wishes. In serious and as-objective-as-possible retrospection, prior to signing the MOU I could recall two acquitances (one nurse the other outside medical field) saying that I should consider being a PA or pharamcist instead. Other than those two, I have not met any individual throughout my life who states that I cannot become a qualified physician. At least according to the school, the phsycian who failed me insisted on using the F as a serious wake-up call that stimulates me to become the physician that he thinks best represents the school he and I both enrolled in, which is why he chose to make none of the evaluation visible to program directors on my dean's letter. Again I do not deny that I could sound more self-serving, defensive, and emotional than how I present myself in reality as an anonymous interenet user desperately struggling with a life-changing situation (again my sincere apologies for offending anybody and I truly respect anyone who can absolutely refrain from being self-serving, defensive, or emotional if the person were exactly in my shoes), or I just happened to neglect and forget any negative feedback until it hurts too much to do so.
Very glad that my story can be helpful for people, which is another reason why I continue this thread till now. Regarding status of medicine, I would say if there is no need to worry about taking care of my family, I am totally content with practicing medicine like a barefoot doctor in any place that needs and sustains me.