I'm in a weird situation and I honestly don't know how to deal with it mentally. My dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer last year due to a medical oversight (they actually found a tumor in his lungs FIVE YEARS ago but forgot to monitor it). I ended up taking a family medical leave to help him navigate through the system as my mom was also going through her own medical issues at the time.
Now I'm heading back to school thousands of miles away and the timing couldn't be worse. My dad was actually doing fine on targeted therapy for a long while but suddenly deteriorated -- he literally dropped 50 pounds in a month due to constant vomiting and diarrhea. He's now on TPN and I'm sitting here in my apartment an entire country away and feeling like the saddest and most disgusting human being in the world. I can't help but feel incredibly selfish for leaving him in this state; this was the guy who worked 70 hours a week to put me through school. I might not ever see him again. I promised him everything would be okay but I guess I was lying to both him and myself?? I'm so angry and frustrated and devastated. The last thing I want to do is start third year like this. Has anyone gone through a similar situation? How did you deal?
Thank you so much everybody for any and all words of advice ; n;
Now I'm heading back to school thousands of miles away and the timing couldn't be worse. My dad was actually doing fine on targeted therapy for a long while but suddenly deteriorated -- he literally dropped 50 pounds in a month due to constant vomiting and diarrhea. He's now on TPN and I'm sitting here in my apartment an entire country away and feeling like the saddest and most disgusting human being in the world. I can't help but feel incredibly selfish for leaving him in this state; this was the guy who worked 70 hours a week to put me through school. I might not ever see him again. I promised him everything would be okay but I guess I was lying to both him and myself?? I'm so angry and frustrated and devastated. The last thing I want to do is start third year like this. Has anyone gone through a similar situation? How did you deal?
Thank you so much everybody for any and all words of advice ; n;