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First post. I'm writing this because I'm having second thoughts about going to medical school. TL/DR: I really want to do something creative with my career such as writing/film, but I'm scared that if I fail, I'll have to return to my old job as an accountant.
I majored in accounting and worked as a public auditor for three years until I passed the CPA exam. After all of that I raged quit my job and decided to become a doctor. I spent the last two years taking science prerequisites while working part-time as a waiter. My grades have been good, and I'm scheduled to take the MCAT on September 9. For almost this entire year second thoughts have been creeping into my head until they've reached a tipping point these past couple of weeks. I can barely concentrate on my studies, I literally lay in bed until 4:30 AM thinking if this is the right choice, and then I go on these SDN forums trying to see what other people have said about this topic. To be honest, I think I can make it, and I think I might actually enjoy being a doctor once I get there, but there's something inside of me that keeps saying this isn't the path for me.
My REAL dream is to do something creative like writing or being a filmmaker. I always kept a journal, but never got too serious about it because I figured those were pipe dreams and disregarded them. I'm really scared because if I decide to drop medical school and fail at becoming a writer or filmmaker, I'll have to return to accounting. I HATED that job, and i would die inside and would regret dropping medical school if I had to become an accountant again. So another reason why I want to be a doctor is that I don't want to be an accountant, if that makes sense. But, I feel like I'll regret not chasing after my dreams, because I'll always wonder what if. I don't know which regret I'll hate more, but if I had to pick one, it'd be not going to medical school if I failed at writing.
I majored in accounting and worked as a public auditor for three years until I passed the CPA exam. After all of that I raged quit my job and decided to become a doctor. I spent the last two years taking science prerequisites while working part-time as a waiter. My grades have been good, and I'm scheduled to take the MCAT on September 9. For almost this entire year second thoughts have been creeping into my head until they've reached a tipping point these past couple of weeks. I can barely concentrate on my studies, I literally lay in bed until 4:30 AM thinking if this is the right choice, and then I go on these SDN forums trying to see what other people have said about this topic. To be honest, I think I can make it, and I think I might actually enjoy being a doctor once I get there, but there's something inside of me that keeps saying this isn't the path for me.
My REAL dream is to do something creative like writing or being a filmmaker. I always kept a journal, but never got too serious about it because I figured those were pipe dreams and disregarded them. I'm really scared because if I decide to drop medical school and fail at becoming a writer or filmmaker, I'll have to return to accounting. I HATED that job, and i would die inside and would regret dropping medical school if I had to become an accountant again. So another reason why I want to be a doctor is that I don't want to be an accountant, if that makes sense. But, I feel like I'll regret not chasing after my dreams, because I'll always wonder what if. I don't know which regret I'll hate more, but if I had to pick one, it'd be not going to medical school if I failed at writing.