This my first time seeking emotional support from strangers online, so bear with me here.
Stats:
UG: B.S. Psychology, 3.97 overall, 4.0 departmental, honors thesis, total of 1.5yrs undergrad research exp across 2 labs, clinical exp: "bereavement volunteer" at local hospice 1 year
Post-Bacc (2013 - present): supervised kids in psychiatric residential tx facility, paid RA on multi-dept R01-funded project in school of medicine doing clinical interviewing, psychophysio data collection, and lots of research: 6 posters (3 first author, 3 co author) at national conferences (ADAA, ISTSS, SOBP), co-presenter at 1 symposium for small private college's conference (nothing major, but i thought it would be good CV fodder), 1 in-progress first-author manuscript, another 1 in-progress poster for ISTSS 2016
Other details: amazing LOR providers (worked with me individually, not just "she was in my class, did x, y z., would be great for your school"), personal statement critiqued and approved by all 3 LOR writers, 2 post-docs who supervise me at my RA job, and 2 current grads students I worked with as undergrad.
Story thus far:
First time applying to research-oriented clinical psychology PhD programs. Applied to 11, interviewed at 2.5 (one was a phone pre-interview that did not turn into an official on-site interview), accepted into 1. Specifically, Temple University, my top choice, interviewed, waitlisted, and rejected me. I interviewed and was accepted into Fordham University's clinical psych phd program with full funding.
Dilemma:
I am in love with Temple's program. The POI's interests are pretty much a perfect match with mine, her grad students did nothing but rave about her as a mentor, overall grad students seemed really happy, the cameraderie is really great within cohorts, they just built a gorgeous, new community psychological services center 1 block from the psych building for practicum, Philadelphia is a beautiful city (walked around it a bit while I was there to get a feel for it) and surprisingly affordable on a grad stipend according all the students I talked to.
Fordham's program seemed average to me. The students were a little more stressed out, POI's interests are close but not 100% match, POI also doesn't have a lab, grants, or projects - you basically come to them tell them what you want and you build a project from scratch, they don't have a in-house clinic but NYC also has alot of great externship sites, NYC-living is obviously expensive and difficult on a grad stipend, and I have some concerns, though not overly large, about their Jesuit history.
I was devastated about Temple, and now I'm considering reapplying next year 1) for another shot at it, and 2) I'm not happy with Fordham and might go somewhere else even if it's not Temple. I just feel like I'd be really really happy at Temple, though, and I'm afraid if I go to Fordham, I'll just be doing it to get a degree and won't really enjoy the experience. It's kind of selfish when alot of people don't even get into a program at all, but I want to get a degree doing what I love and love the place/people I'm doing it at at/with. Essentially, i want to have my cake and eat it too. It's a purely irrational, emotion-based assumption, but I really want to be happy at my program for the next 5-6 years of my life, and I don't get that gut reaction with Fordham. I watched some of the grad students at my undergrad's clinical program deteriorate in health and spirit because they really didn't like the program, but didn't want to risk the uncertainties of re-applying. Another one had the exact same dilemma when she applied: had great stats, tons of research experience, was accepted into 1 school, and didn't love it, so she made the brave decision to re-apply and now loves where she is at. Half of the people I've talked to are basically saying that clinical psych is too cut-throat now to take chances at re-applying so I should accept - I can always post-doc at Temple, or collaborate in some other fashion in the future. The other half totally understands that grad school is a big decision and it's okay to want to be somewhere that you feel would make you happy and if I'm having that strong of a gut reaction about Fordham, it's okay to take some time to figure it out and apply again next year.
If I reapplied, I'd essentially be reapplying to the same schools, this time with publications under my belt and would probably retake GRE to make at least 160s. So, should I reapply? If so, WAMC that I will get interviewed at Temple again? For that matter, WAMC that I will get more interviews (aka interviews to places that rejected me this round)?