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I'm an IMG started my intern year in IM and started of with ICU rotation. I did bad not with the patient care but a bit slow due to understanding the new process and system here. But senior resident whom I rotated with made that a big issue and projected as I don't know how to take care of patients and procedures. I have to agree that I'm taking little extra time than other interns as I was worried that I would make mistake if I do it fast. Even when the workload is heavy and when try to take a breath between cases for a minute, she used to scold that I'm taking it easy and focusing on cases and I have run from a patient to patient (these are her exact words). She influenced all her batch mates that I'm doing lot of mistakes. From my side, I did couple of mistakes, one serious issue being not updated about patient condition in time as there are 6 new patients at night shift who came at the same time and first patient condition went too bad. There are too many irregularities in his lab reports which other seniors accepted and told that condition could not be avoided.
She also influenced PD and other attendings because of which my mistakes were highlighted even though other interns are making some mistakes. Even though I'm receiving positive feedback from my attendings that I'm improving, My PD now wants me to repeat my intern year based on the initial feedback and the incident mentioned above which I really don't think I deserve it. I have talked to some seniors and all were saying the same that she influenced a lot. To my worst nightmare, I rotated 2 months with her in the last 4 months and her eval has more weight as I was with most of the time.
Since there is a guy who is in prelim wanted to apply for first year categorical position, it seems like they wanted to offer him my second year position and want me to do my internship year again. Since there is only so much time left for contract renewals, I'm not sure on how to proceed. I really think I'm better than some of the interns in medical care but I have to accept my social skills are above average but not great.
Since there seems to be an alternative for them to fill my position, I don't think I will get a chance here for second year now. Is there a chance that I could apply for second year anywhere? Also think joining first year anywhere again would be hard. But doing my intern year again at this place which I clearly don't deserve to be is killing me.
I haven't received and written evals till now but my PD talked to me and asking me to apply for first year again. I'm not sure what to do at this point. Any advice is greatly appreciated.
She also influenced PD and other attendings because of which my mistakes were highlighted even though other interns are making some mistakes. Even though I'm receiving positive feedback from my attendings that I'm improving, My PD now wants me to repeat my intern year based on the initial feedback and the incident mentioned above which I really don't think I deserve it. I have talked to some seniors and all were saying the same that she influenced a lot. To my worst nightmare, I rotated 2 months with her in the last 4 months and her eval has more weight as I was with most of the time.
Since there is a guy who is in prelim wanted to apply for first year categorical position, it seems like they wanted to offer him my second year position and want me to do my internship year again. Since there is only so much time left for contract renewals, I'm not sure on how to proceed. I really think I'm better than some of the interns in medical care but I have to accept my social skills are above average but not great.
Since there seems to be an alternative for them to fill my position, I don't think I will get a chance here for second year now. Is there a chance that I could apply for second year anywhere? Also think joining first year anywhere again would be hard. But doing my intern year again at this place which I clearly don't deserve to be is killing me.
I haven't received and written evals till now but my PD talked to me and asking me to apply for first year again. I'm not sure what to do at this point. Any advice is greatly appreciated.