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Hey everyone,
Long time lurker, New attending for about 1 year. Wanted to get an idea if anyone else suffers from any type of mental illness? I myself suffer from generalized anxiety disorder. Always knew I had anxiety, really came out when I was in residency when I got the "official" diagnosis. I've been on and off meds and my anxiety comes in waves whenever it feels like it. Sometimes it's crippling, other times an annoyance in the background. It always feels like I'm alone with this even though we all know physician mental health/anxiety/depression/suicidiality is higher than many other professions. Really don't know what I expect to get out of posting this.. maybe just shining some light on an issue that I feel is stigmatized. If anyone else cares to share their story they are also more than welcome!
Anyway. My intern year was stressful like everyone else. But for some reason for me I felt like I just got an IV push of epi that would occur for days on end. I lost weight, maybe 20 pounds. Took a while to get a psychiatrist and another long time to accept i needed medication. Medication helped me and I finished my residency with minimal anxiety which was great. Eventually time came to decide what to do with meds. My psychiatrist suggested I try being off meds now that the stress of residency is done. I did it and shortly after rebounded back to anxiety. Not the same intensity but that uncomfortable familiar friend was back. I restarted my meds although this time not as successful as last. Still working with the psychiatrist to find the right med for me. Wish I could say attending life is great, and you know what, it's much better than residency. I jus have to accept I am a person with a chronic mental illness. Even though I am a physician I am still human.
Cheers!
Long time lurker, New attending for about 1 year. Wanted to get an idea if anyone else suffers from any type of mental illness? I myself suffer from generalized anxiety disorder. Always knew I had anxiety, really came out when I was in residency when I got the "official" diagnosis. I've been on and off meds and my anxiety comes in waves whenever it feels like it. Sometimes it's crippling, other times an annoyance in the background. It always feels like I'm alone with this even though we all know physician mental health/anxiety/depression/suicidiality is higher than many other professions. Really don't know what I expect to get out of posting this.. maybe just shining some light on an issue that I feel is stigmatized. If anyone else cares to share their story they are also more than welcome!
Anyway. My intern year was stressful like everyone else. But for some reason for me I felt like I just got an IV push of epi that would occur for days on end. I lost weight, maybe 20 pounds. Took a while to get a psychiatrist and another long time to accept i needed medication. Medication helped me and I finished my residency with minimal anxiety which was great. Eventually time came to decide what to do with meds. My psychiatrist suggested I try being off meds now that the stress of residency is done. I did it and shortly after rebounded back to anxiety. Not the same intensity but that uncomfortable familiar friend was back. I restarted my meds although this time not as successful as last. Still working with the psychiatrist to find the right med for me. Wish I could say attending life is great, and you know what, it's much better than residency. I jus have to accept I am a person with a chronic mental illness. Even though I am a physician I am still human.
Cheers!