The MCAT is just an exam, it definitely does not define you. I understand you feel devastated, of course you would since you put in so much time studying. Honestly, I feel like your exam score might have been due to test day anxiety, maybe you were distracted, or exhausted, or a million other reasons.
I also studied my butt off for 3 months (devoted 100% of effort) and my exam score was much much lower than the scores on my practice exams. Dunno what happened on test day. I felt like a failure too when I saw my score. It was super embarrassing too because all of my family and relatives knew how hard I was studying, and that my score low. I took a few days off from all pre med stuff, cried the first day, watched a bunch of funny movies, listened to a lot of metal, ate a lot of junk food. Talked with my sisters, who pointed out all the stuff that I had done well/accomplished (talking with people that are on your team helps!). Then I got back into it. Reminded myself that I am, in fact, awesome and the MCAT can go to hell lol
I think the most important thing for you to do now is just to practice some self care. Do things to relax, things that you enjoy. This feeling of awfulness will pass, that horrible feeling in your stomach will get better. You'll get past this! Don't do pre med stuff while you're still feeling so down, it might make you feel worse.
Keep in mind too that you're pursuing one of the most challenging and competitive career paths. Do you know how many people don't even make it through college to this point? How many quit the pre med track after that first o-chem class? How many people don't motivate themselves enough to even study and then take the MCAT? A BUNCH! A WHOLE BUNCH OF PEOPLE! It's a very challenging path, you are not dumb. The fact that you're trying to go into medicine shows that you have a great work ethic and lots of brains!
When you feel better, consider if you would be up for trying again when it comes to this exam. If not, you have plenty of other options. PA school, dental school. Nursing school- Nurse practitioners have similar responsibilities as primary care doctors. There are sooo many possibilities! Ones that you might enjoy even more if you actually consider them seriously.
It may seem like it's the end of the world now, but it's not! You still have so much time and countless options! Surround yourself with people that care about you, try to remember that you're a rockstar, and just go from there
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